JAIVA DHARMA BY SRILA BHAKTIVINODE THAKURA

[candramukhidasi]

The sentiments with which one relates to Krsna when one establishes sambandha (relationship) determine one's corresponding state of perfection (siddhi).Your nature is feminine, and your inclination is in parakiya rasa, so you are a subordinate attendant of Vraja-vanesvari. The sambandha that you have to cultivate and realize is: "I am a maidservant of Srimati Radhika's most confidential attendant maid. Srimati Radhika is the mistress of my very life, and Krsna is Her life; therefore Sri Radha-vallabha Sri Krsna is certainly the Lord of my life."