Secret, Rasik-katha and Amorus pastimes are in Gurudeva's heart!

[Chiranjib Das]

I am feeling a joyus confidence in our Srila Gurudeva, Srila Prabhupada and indeed our entire Rupanuga sampradaya! When I read some of Gita Govinda, I felt nervous by that katha. I know I'm not eligable to read such katha without my mind being agitated due to my own material contamination. At the same time, I could understand that Gurudeva is swimming in that vast ocean of madhurya-prema-rasa! I also sensed that the intensity of amorous love expressed in Gita Govinda was not to be found in the mundane world. I feel confident that Gurudeva will reveal all things regarding rasa-tattva to me in due time. Therefore I only want to receive according to my eligibility or adhikar what Gurudeva is bestowing on me. I know that by following Gurudeva, greed will come in a natural way to enter more and more into Vraja-prema. Srila Prabhupada used to say the test that we are advancing in Kishna consciousness is that our material desires are becomming less as our attraction to Krishna is becoming more. He also said we could gauge our love for Krishna by how much we are developing love and attachment to chanting His Holy Name. The very moment that I am ready to enter or receive realization of confidential, sweet rasa, Gurudeva will bestow me with all these things- without a shadow of a doubt!!!

[admin]

Thanks Prabhuji, this was a very nice comment!
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