Kaviraj Krishna das's Page

Oh mere gurudev,

please, tear that such a rough bark of material mind, which has trapped my heart, I cannot do this myself - it's too hard...
the flow of my life has showed me there is no other support but you, so please, keep me tight, let me hold on you...
I was blind, oh gurudev, I'm still blind, so please, open my eyes, eyes of my heart that unless one drop of love could come to light...
I try to write, I try to feel but sometimes clouds come ahead and I can't myself reveal...
so, gurudev, please, come to me and take my hand before patience of waiting ends...

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There is no separation in the heart, because there aren't any circumstances for love, if it is, it's just being, because it's always present... far or near love is always in the being. We are in oneness, so we neither separate nor meet, we are just being in love and that's all

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Dear Lord, I want to thank You for bestowing me a boon of Your presence. Sometimes You pass by and come round for a while. Oh, what a wonderful moment is when You don't miss me and approach the door of my house. Unfortunately, my very rude and ignorant porter called Mind doesn't treat You properly, he just opens the door and seeing You waiting for friendly invitation to enter as the most welcome guest says to You harshly: ''Here you are again, what do you want, go away on your way, there is no reason for your coming, we haven't called you'' and bangs the door in front of You looking at him with such a merciful sight. Then You turn back slowly and every time having the voice full of endless love utter silently: ''This porter doesn't let me be a guest of his master, well, I will come the next time''

Meanwhile, I call my Lord with utmost endeavour and knock on the door of the inner room, where I'm locked by my rebellious porter, but I can do nothing. My best auxiliary called Intellect is intoxicated with many beautiful desirous talks of my porter, so I'm helpless, but for all that I feel very well every time when the Lord comes round. I can't see Him, I can't hear His sweet voice, but I feel His presence when He stands at my door hoping to be let inside.
These moments are the most valuable in my life. These moments of the presence of the Lord make my long waiting fruitful and inspire me with new hopes and power in the struggle for freedom.

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The loneliness correlates with inner emptiness, when your heart is full of love and elation then you have a wide range of association.